Everyday Revolutions

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Full Fall October Moon

October 23rd will host the full moon this month and already I feel the pull of forces swaying my inner landscape. Perhaps hormonal, celestial, tidal, astrological, or plain and simple rationalization, justification or defending of my reactions and responses to people, places and things. In this very moment the emotional levy is cracked and leaking, I'm mourning not having things work out the way I want. This is no way to treat the moon, blaming her for my emotional state. With my back against the stone wall of the present moment, it's impossible to see it's effect, the totality of it's enormity - carved by an emotional ancestral couple of centuries. In the realm of infinite possibilities I could be yearning to recapture a part of my memory, my being I've never known in the past 37 years.
Dig my knuckles and wrists among the stems and leaves of invasive plants to clear the space for more greens to grow, for potatoes, yucca, and other roots vegetables. Awaken, ingest, harmonize and lay head down with ritual .....I yearn for what I don't know, for the parts of my legacy I'm unaware of, for the awareness, tenderness and love of gratitude. For connection, a feeling that needs no punctuation.

Friday, October 1, 2010

Is anybody there?

Lately, I really feel the need to be heard. To be recognized, acknowledged, embraced, cajoled with compliments, serenaded with worship-like praise, offered appreciative shared jokes directed at my mannerisms, habits, likes and dislikes.... Last night I symbolically carried myself to bed as my Papa used to when I was a girl. I stroked my freshly washed curls and wrapped myself in a ball on my side.
This morning the greater power of the world wide web offerd me some words to say aloud, to record in the lobes of my ears, to read and visualize them manifesting, they go somethin' like this; Abundant Universe, I claim my Queendom. Take from me any unworthiness and replace it with the knowledge of my true deservingness.
I open to receive all the good that life has to offer me.
I ask for, and accept the best in every situation.

A shiney taupe Prius,
Ful coverage dental insurance,
A good paying fulfilling service oriented job,
Good physical health, Balanced calm mental and spiritual health
Sparkly magical health
Travel travel travel; Sweden, Turkey, India, Netherlands, Scandinavia, Middle East, France, Spain, Bali, Arches National Monument, Grand Canyon, Yellowstone, Mississippi River.....
All the same for my loved ones.